I found this really moving and honest - and felt a special connection to your description of being "desperate and hungry" in your early adulthood. That sense of ravenous, restless desire is something I've spent the majority of my life being a slave to too, and something that I still grapple with - something a lot of us from immigrant families grapple with.
I also found your distinction between playing "constructed" vs. real games really though provoking - it makes me think of the fact that the more we live in a constructed world, the less human we become. Because we do less and less of the things that make us human. There's a quote, I forget from who - "Love or pain or danger makes you real again". I think when we live in a world that lets us convenience ourselves out of all those things, it's hard to be a real human being.
I wonder if you've read Brene Brown's book "Braving the Wilderness"? It touches on similar themes of "belonging to yourself" and doing the scary, lonely thing that's real. I think you'd find it interesting.
I found this really moving and honest - and felt a special connection to your description of being "desperate and hungry" in your early adulthood. That sense of ravenous, restless desire is something I've spent the majority of my life being a slave to too, and something that I still grapple with - something a lot of us from immigrant families grapple with.
I also found your distinction between playing "constructed" vs. real games really though provoking - it makes me think of the fact that the more we live in a constructed world, the less human we become. Because we do less and less of the things that make us human. There's a quote, I forget from who - "Love or pain or danger makes you real again". I think when we live in a world that lets us convenience ourselves out of all those things, it's hard to be a real human being.
I wonder if you've read Brene Brown's book "Braving the Wilderness"? It touches on similar themes of "belonging to yourself" and doing the scary, lonely thing that's real. I think you'd find it interesting.
I haven't! But anything from Brene Brown always sings straight to the heart - Rilke style. ❤️ I'll check it out.
Thanks for the thoughtful comment, lady - chat soon! :)